The Maintenance of the underlying Conversation for your Mediocrity must be recognized.
We all have some form of Mediocrity do deal with; you, me, the Pope and the Dalai Lama.
Most folks don’t even realize it’s there. Much of your Story is Maintained by reinforcing past events with current instances that have us reliving Pain.
A good way to notice it is if you practice collecting evidence to be right about how wrong you are.